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bloggin for 5 june
Tuesday, June 06, 2006 @ 1:13 AM

nw is 6 june... 1.12am le

juz came back hme for like half an hour ago? ya think so.

bloggin for 5 june.
woke up at 9 plus in the morning, went to hav breakfast with mum.
then went hme helped her to slice the potato.

used com, then planned wat to do. before going for tournament in evening.
so decided at 12 plus..
which was to! meet justin at Tamp n watched a movie. act meetin shwee, but she prefer to play pool, in the end nv play liao..
we watched the benchwarmers, quite funny la, and sort of disgustin.. haha...

until 4 plus, we went to downtown to find our lovergal, sandra. she ended work at five. so went there to mit her lor..
ate at mac, then we took bus to BHCC...
along the way, the expressway was damn JAM lor...
delayed our time, we were late lor..
so instead of changin bus, we took cab to bhcc...

reached there, rushed to toilet. then went to warm up with the rest.
and the starts of the game.

haiz!
i can't say much but onli can sigh.
very, vERy disappointed.
we lost AGAIN.

we were like totally out of concentration. dunno wat everyone was doing. ESP ME!
today, all my lap-up, shootin, passin all SUX.
act this match, i think we can win, but i dunno y.. we juz nv.

is it because i'm the controller?
a lousy controller then i can't make the team win?
we lost for all the match we hav played so far.
starts to numb, but i dun wish to.

sry it's self can't make any change. and i dunno i must said to who..
maybe to my teammates.?

i always say i will give my best, want to improve.
but i think i nv did.

most of the things, i heard from others is negative.
who we like to hear negative things of u? i feel sad. but i hav to change.

am i nervous in this match?
i dun think so, juz tat i felt weird...
dunno how to carry on.
i tried not to give up.
cos i wanna play well, but it always failed.

who can tell me wat to do?

this doesn't mean i will give up, i'm juz lost.
i will be back soon, i guess...
hav to rest..

aft tournament, coach came tok to me.. at tat point of time, i'm really felt tat i'm a LOUSY controller, a FAILURE.. tat's y i cried. i can't control liao.
aft a while i'm alright le.
mean while, my teammates was celebratin susan's bd.
then took photos, played some "games" by using the cream of the cake.

then a while later, abt 7 of us went chomp chomp to makan.
gt me, san, justin,shwee, celine, yan ping n stacy.
ordered diff kind of food n eat.
the last order is mostly beancurd! diff favour.
we bought 6 type lor, in the end can't finish, we played no. guessin to finish it, so bloated. i gt it once.

tks yp for treatin me.

guess i will be alright soon.

1.38am